I just cried last night.
Again, it was those random thoughts.
No matter how much we try to be positive
Sometimes life really gives us things to ruin our happiness.
I must admit now.
Because I get so used to doing things on my own,
I fear of someone actually trying to reach out to me,
I fear of people trying to help me,
I fear of someone actually trying to break down my walls.
I was never courageous or brave.
I have always hidden who and what I am.
It gives me comfort,
knowing nothing can ever break me,
knowing I am untouchable because I won’t let anyone do that to me.
Now, I feel sorry for myself.
Now I don’t know how to do it anymore.
Now I don’t know..
I don’t know how I would let someone save me
From drowning myself on my own.
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